It's 1995. He is sitting in an office on the campus of BYU, where his counselor has attached electrodes to his hands, arms, torso and genitals. His Mormon Bishop gave him a referral to the counselor. Jayce is shown pornographic images of men having sexual encounters. Then, ZAP! His body tingles, then aches from the electrical shock administered by his trusted counselor. He is scheduled for twice-weekly sessions for four months. "Toward the end of the program I could press a button and it would stop the shock and then a picture of a woman would come on."Bringing criminal or civil charges against the counselor, the University, or the Church might be difficult. According to Jayce, "his counselor's name was Michael Keates. That's the name he gave me, and I used the name of Greg Smith. We were told to use pseudonyms, not ever give our real names. I know he didn't give me his real name, and I had to sign waivers that I wouldn't hold him, BYU, or the Mormon church responsible, that I would never discuss what happened, period, that it was to remain confidential between myself and him. A family in Provo -- they lead what we call Family Fellowship, which is a Mormon version of PFLAG -- they've been sending me photos of people who they think may have been the perpetrator. So far I have not been able to identify him, but they're very adamant that we do and I feel that we should. But Jayce is 19 years old and he willingly goes back for more. He gives them his college savings -- $9,000 -- for the treatments which are promised to cure his homosexuality. * * * "They promised me it would work, and who doesn't want to live a life that's normal and acceptable in your society and have your family embrace you?" he asks rhetorically. Therapist Ron Lawrence of Community Counseling Center in Las Vegas says this "reparative therapy" is "equivalent to what I would call the kind of torture that people experienced in Nazi concentration camps." Jayce displays the scars on his hands and tells of more scars where the electrodes were placed "on my torso, and [breathing deeply as though reliving some excruciating pain ] on my genitalia." The words don't come easily to Jayce as he explains why he so willingly gave up his education savings -- and put his earning potential on hold -- in order to endure what Lawrence describes as "assault and battery, abuse". "You're taught that the leaders of the church will never lie to you, never deceive you and you're taught to believe them blindly," Jayce explains. "I believed the counselors. I believed it would work. I believed that through that [reparative therapy], faith, temple attendance and prayer and fasting I would be healed. I believe that through God anything's possible. And I was told it would work. It probably sounds really naive, but I truly believed it would work."